** I originally wrote this a few weeks ago and only decided to post it today.**
A Funk, the funk, in a funk. One of the things that have been surrounding me lately is the word funk. In the MTC I met the wonderful Elder Thomas Funk, who was so devoted to my accent that he invited to "come shoot something" with him after the mission. He taught me how to go places without moving my chair and the proper use of the word 'also'. Also he was always making me laugh with his next great idea. The second funk in my life was Amy. My second trainee in the field. Beautiful, smart, funny, shy, quiet Amy Lynn. How I love this wonderful woman. She taught me quiet dignity. She taught me diligence. She taught me the importance of tears. She walked like a queen and uplifted everyone that crossed her path. Amazing daughter of God she is. Today I am surrounded by a much different funk. I don't know what it is I just don't feel like I am in a good place. I know that this is where I need to be, but I also know this is not where I want to be. I fill like I fell into this funk and it just wont let me go! The harder I fight it the worse it gets. Quicksand of sorts. I want to be happy and I want to be content but I am just not a wait and see kind of girl. I need to be doing. I need to be going and coming. I need to be helping and serving and being productive. Today I feel like I cant do anything right. I want to be kissed good and kissed long by a certain someone. (Hope you caught the reference) But it will not be happening anytime soon. I am just frustrated with the 'wait' answer. I have to learn patience. I have so little. You would think as much as I practice at patience I would have it mastered by now, unfortunately not. Ole Scratches is still trying to get the best of me. I just cant seem to shake it. I need some distraction. I need someone to talk to. I need a good cuddle. I need to be able to talk with my heavenly father freely and teach others willingly. I need the influence of the spirit. I need to forget me and remember someone else. I need to remember the other Funk's that have helped me so much without it ever being intentional. So with no further complaining (I'm sure you've heard enough already) I am out the door to turn this Funk into Fun! Wish me luck!
-AzK-
